Speak so others want to listen.

Day 01 — Your favorite song

Day 02 — Your favorite movie
Day 03 — Your favorite television program
Day 04 — Your favorite book
Day 05 — Your favorite quote
Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A photo you took
Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 — A fictional book
Day 14 — A non-fictional book
Day 15 — A fanfic
Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 — A talent of yours
Day 20 — A hobby of yours
Day 21 — A recipe
Day 22 — A website
Day 23 — A YouTube video
Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 — Your day, in great detail
Day 26 — Your week, in great detail
Day 27 — This month, in great detail
Day 28 — This year, in great detail
Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy

i know that i must pass this test.

But at the same time, it’s fuel to the fire to make me work harder so i am known by name.

All of our hard work isn’t going unnoticed. I can’t believe how freaking fast we’re moving. I just… I’m so happy. Life isn’t perfect, it’s no where close. There’s sadness inside of me still, stuff that I deal with on the daily. For the time being, it’s going to be there. It’s going to haunt me. But I’m learning ways to deal with it, to accept it, to live with it and not let it control my life.

Honestly… Wow. I’ve seen myself grow so much in the past month and a half. Especially this past week. I don’t know if anyone else is seeing it or can feel it, but I can. And that’s good enough for now. I’m learning how to starve the bad wolf, and fatten up the good wolf. I’m coaxing my elephant. I admit, I am not near perfect. I’m dealing with demons. But I’m learning how to support the angels inside of me and that surround me. I just wish I could do more. I wish I was able to set the 2 hours aside every day so that I could read and get through my damn books, and listen to more CDs. But something about this business, and about personal growth… It’s done in cracks of time.

I plan on running so hard for these next few months. I need to make the change. It’s come to the point where I can’t just sit around and watch things happen.

I used to get sooo down in the beginning when I’d put in so much work and get nothing in return. And honestly, it hurt. I felt like I wasn’t growing personally. I wasn’t growing in the business. I was showing up, but it wasn’t worth it… I wasn’t getting recognized. And I know that sounds really shitty, but I felt like it wouldn’t have mattered if I was at the meetings or not, like no one would have noticed. And I think that showed. Butch told me he appreciated how I was always there, he respected it. Even if I wasn’t bringing people, I was supporting. Jason told me the other night how he respected how I was just so trusting, that I’m a ride-or-die. Something about me is that I don’t know how to take compliments. I feel weird when people tell me good things about who I am, as a person. When we were having our mini de-brief the other night and Jason was talking to all of us single ladies and stuff…. Wow. Even when it was my turn to talk.  I couldn’t say everything that I wanted to to my mentors and the other single ladies. I don’t know if I could put it into words. I wanted to just cry to show how much I appreciate each and every one of them, and how they’ve helped me. When Jason was telling me stuff about myself, and when he was letting us in and telling us part of his story… I was so overwhelmed. It was so hard to break down.

That night on the way home I texted Jason and told him everything I wanted to say, but couldn’t. It was the length of like 6 texts in one. Haha, but I felt like he needed to know. So much of what he was saying was things that I’ve always fought that I buried deep inside, hoping they’d disappear.

I don’t know mannnnn. I seriously just love Team Family. <3 I’m so blessed to have them in my life.

They’re my strength, my (in)sanity, my love, my pillars of faith.

literally every day that goes by where he doesn’t talk to me makes me more determined to get him to have sex with me

i’m sick of looking for validity of myself in people who aren’t able to see my light. i’ve tried so hard looking to others to make me feel like i’m good enough, when those people i was looking to can’t even even recognize the beauty in the world around them, or appreciate the life they’ve been given. why would i look to these people to see my strengths, to feel my blessings, to tell me who i am, and that i’m good enough? truth is, i’ve found the people that will tell me, without even having to search. i am good enough, because i’m a reflection of them. i look to them for strength, guidance, compassion, and i’ve never had to second guess. they are my strength, my security, my pillars of faith.

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see ya next week, tumblr.

I’ll probably be posting quotes from leadership,

but most likely there won’t be free wifi/i won’t have time/energy to check out the people i follow while i’m at Leadership

PSS:

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So it’s 1:50am & although I’m pretty tired, I’m not gunna sleep. Leaving for St Louis in a little over an hour ! WHAT THE HELL !!! I seriously cannot wait. Who would have thought just a month ago that I would be going to St Louis to be surrounded by thousands of people from all over the world to hear some of the most amazing speakers, with my amazing team? NOT ME. I can’t believe this is really happening. Especially to me.

These past 2 weeks have been difficult, I’m not even gunna front. It’s been an emotional rollercoaster every hour of every day. From several break downs, a mild anxiety attack, fear all the way to the most amazing high and feeling fired up. But I really realized, if it wasn’t for all the bad shit, I wouldn’t appreciate the amazingness. I know, it’s cliche. But, it’s real. I’ve put up with the bullshit so that I can enjoy my happiness.

I seriously have been dying the past few days thinking about leadership!!! I just want to explode.

Gah, no sleep till we board the plane at Denver going to STL. WHAT THE HELL. Oh well. Sleep is for the WEAK mo’fuckaaaaaaa !

Nothing hurts me more than being lied to and knowing that I’m being lied to. Just saying.

kari-shma

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