I’m thankful that you’re not in my life anymore, for good this time. I’m finally strong enough to not care anymore, to not let it affect me, to not let you back in. Because I can’t let you back in; I can’t give you the power any longer. It’s not fair to me, or the people in my life. I even forgot that it was your birthday the other day.
Soooo, I’m pretty exhausted. I don’t think I’ve been home before 2am since… Last Tuesday night? Sheeeesh. Been having late-night canoodles with the boyfriend. :) Happyyy about that. Happy about him, about us.
I have had the most absurd headache since Sunday night/Early Monday morning when I had my little breakdown. That + Barely sleep for the past week = massive headache I wish would just go awayyyy.
But, it won’t. Tonight is Team Meeting in Sunnyvale, haaaay! Bonding time with Rel on the way there. I’m excited for that, no homo. Then QT with Chris and Danae after, yay! I miss them. Theeeen going straight to his house for sleepover :) And I got surprises in store for him ;) (Mia, you’ll find out tomorrow!) Thennnn tomorrow we’re (hopefully) going to go to the Pier (if the weather isn’t complete shit.) Mmm & he might be meeting the parents… Eeeeks. But I’m forsure meeting his mama tomorrow :D Finally. Then his basketball game tomorrow nighttttt.
What else is going on this week… Thursday I have school, 2 midterms & 2 essays due. Then working a half shift right after. Then of course, spending the night with him. Then Friday I have work in the AM, chiiiiiiiiill, then bonding/potluck/sesh with my youngin family<3 So excited, I miss them so much. NO HOMO. Then probably have a little night cap. Saturday is Jaynah’s 1st birthday Party :) Yay! He might be coming with me, so if he does I’m meeting some of his family! Holler. Then work that night, booooo.
Anyways. I need to get readyyyy. I have to do my face, my hair, pack for tonight and tomorrow……………….. And then be on my way.
Ok see yaaaaa tumbls.
PS: 4/20 is just another day ;)
I don’t even know what happened last night, or where to begin. Hmmm, this is gunna be a long one. With gory details, of course.
I’ve decided it’s time for me to leave my internship at Youth Noise.
I’ve been interning for YN since October ‘09, and it’s been pretty legit. Working in the financial district, seeing how non-profits work, getting experience in a field I might want to dabble in in the future. But when it comes down to it, I’m getting too busy and have a lot going on. With my final stretch in community college, needing more hours at Safeway, the business, family, the boyfriend, and personal things… I just need to eliminate certain things. I love my internship, but my heart isn’t there anymore. It’s nothing against the company, the coworkers, the leaders I’d work with. It’s just not something I can do whole-heartedly. And if I can’t dive into it 100% every week, I’m not going to waste their time, or mine.
I’ve been so MIA from it for the past 2 weeks because of things happening, life got in the way. Shit happens, what can you say. I just need to be able to have the time to take care of things, and take care of myself.
I’m planning on e-mailing my boss tonight to let her know. I feel shitty about doing it via e-mail, but I just don’t have the time or money to make my way to the city, and put myself in that super uncomfortable situation.
Ahhh, it’s been a good run. Maybe I’ll go back (if they’ll let me! Haha) but we’ll see what happens in the future.
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