So i finally made the decision i’m going to work my ass off and get back on track on get healthy again. I realized that I’m probably going to always need to count cals/work out to keep fit because if i don’t, i have no limits when it comes to intake, and no motivation to work out. my best friend is getting married at the end of june and i want to be able to always look back at the pictures and be happy, and not not want to look at them because of how i look.
i think it, once again, finally clicked in my brain that i need to do this—-
and now, nothing is going to stop me.
ready for disneyland. (april 7-10ish)
ready for the cruise. (july 15-19) mexico babyyyy.
ready to get this show on the roaaaaaad.
i just want to travel so many places this and next year.
then i’ll grow up and get a real job.
I wanted to be moved out by summer of this year, but that isn’t looking like it’s going to happen. So, my new goal is to be moved out by April 2014. That gives me 16 months to save. By the end of the year I’d like to have at least $5000 in my bank account, so when I move out, I’ll have “cushion money”.
This all means I really need to star cutting back on spending money on food and shopping and coffee. Also, I need to find either a 2nd job, or a better job that will pay me more than what I’m getting at my work right now.
I really want to travel this year. Disneyland, Vegas (freaking hopefully!), Hawaii (my boyfriend’s aunt wants to go the week after Thanksgiving), and I really want to go to Chicago for New Years (because I love it there and want to visit again).
I was so good at it when I worked out and ate right for the 3 months this year. So, I’m gunna try to start again this year. Even if it’s little by little. I know I can do it. this is my year, and I’m not going to give up on myself like I did before.
And mentally as well, not just physical. I had a horrible mindstate in 2012. I battled bouts of depression, and did not tell anyone. I never even told anyone I was sad. But I want to change that this year, I’m turning 24, and I want to be happy.
I want to rekindle old friendships, and make new ones. I’m 23 years old and have probably 5 people I can say are actual friends, and about 5 more where I’m trying to figure out where we stand.
Someone said what you do at Midnight on New Years Eve is how you’re year is going to be…. I’d say being with my boyfriend and bestfriend is all I could ask for.
Valentines day: Disneyland
3year Anni: Winery
24th (wut) Birthday: Vegas
These things are going to happen. No matter wut.
after looking at pictures from tahoe, i seriously need to get back into working out and being healthy. uhg. i did so fucking good when i was eating right and running, and then i gave up. i just need to take it one step at a time. cutting out sodas and juices, cutting out junk food, eating salads for dinner instead of fried crap. it’s time to get it right, get it tight.
not seeing my boyfriend till i get off work (at 11:40 tonight) because his cousin is a dick who i wish would sit on a grenade.
so my cat loves it under my bed and i guess that i left my door open when i ate dinner and i didn’t know she came into my room and i just heard her rummaging around under there and i thought it was a creature from paranormal activity omg.
dying of laugher at her cos she just poked her head out.
i don’t believe that anybody feels the way i do, about you know.
and all the roads we have to walk are winding,
and all the lights that lead us there are blinding
there are many things that i would like to say to you
but i don’t know how
you’re gunna be the one that saves me
and after all
you’re my wonderwall
I’m backin down this time,
I don’t wanna fight
I don’t care who’s right
Cos I’m wrong when you’re gone
When you’re gone, yeah
Feels so wrong when you’re gone
i’m DONE with september. completely. it’s been such a tough month for me. uhg. IT NEVER ENDS.
in other news, boyf and I are having a winter getaway the weekend of thanksgiving (well, Sunday the 25th-Tuesday the 27th). I cannot wait! I got a really amazing deal on Groupon for Harveys in Lake Tahoe, $79 for 2 nights (by comparison, it’s about $~90+ for EACH night that we’d stay without the deal!). The only extra fees is $10 per night for taxes, and “resort” fees (which all hotel/casinos have). And I just booked our rental car (cos i’m not gunna bring my baby up there in the winter!) and it’s only gunna be a little over $200 (dang underage fee!) which is a really good price.
Ahhh, I cannot wait to GO and get away from everyone and everything! It’s gunna be nice since we probably won’t be celebrating thanksgiving.
I’m about to pay for my graduation application i’m paying my graduation application tomorrow morning (because apparently my school doesn’t accept VISA, wtf?) and I’m turning it in tomorrow WHICH MEANS I’LL BE DONE WITH MY UNDERGRAD AS OF DECEMBER 17!!!!!
i’m stuck in this really uncomfortable place in my relationship where i’m waiting for something to happen. i’m in a place where i’m waiting for us to just break up or get married.
i don’t like it.